好复杂。。

其实，在这之前。。

有好多复杂的情绪，都困在。。放在心里头。。很想狠狠的将它们一次过的抒发出来。。

好多的情绪都压抑着。。

就讲讲发生在有个很特别的早上吧。。

那天，就。。我有种冲动。。想要快快的结束掉现在所发生的。。

有种感觉，感觉自己已经很努力的去完成每一样东西。。

但，结果都一样。。发觉，你努力，还有人比你更努力。。

当时的我，很低落，但很肯定的是，没人看得出来。。我将自己的感情覆盖的很好。。我不想将我很沮伤的表情，将我的一切赤赤裸裸的给所有的人看。。

也不想说什么了，很想对自己有个很好的交代。。很不想去在乎莫些人所说的，我不期望每个人都很爱我，我都能讨所有人的欢心。。

在这心情交扎的时候，我看到了一个飞机努力向上飞。。带着梦想，带着希望。。我也要，我也要带着我的梦想离开。。

你现在瞧不起我也好，但，我花的，我吃得，我用的，都是我双手打拼出来的。。
我至少不会拿着别人的钱包花着别人的钱来满足自己的快活。。（我不会也不要）

可能，你现在觉得我在说一大堆的废话，但，我自知自明。。我知道我的能力在那头。。不用你来为我评估。。

很多的冷言相对，倒最后会变成了一种的麻醉。。没关系，我会听。。但，你所说的还是你所说的。。你觉得很鼓励，我觉得？？不知道诶，管他个屁用。。哈哈。。

我还有我的专长，我会取人之长不自之短。。预祝你好好看着我长大，验证你说的是命运还是我活出自我..

L.OV.E

Still life sucks..
all the exams keep flooding into my life..~

So i am still me, updating all my life and do whatever i want to do... busy routine.. time flies as fast as rocket shoot~

some incidents happen.. as some really idiotic things really took down some one d life.. creating a lots of rumor and suspicious thought to me.. But, for God sake.. I DUN GIVE A DAMN.. hahas.. ( thx 2 adam lambert)..

What for we care so much about other thought on us.. Yup.. Sometimes it is useful but some time it just added oil to the fire to your life.. making it more complicated as it as easy as abc..
没那么简单——别人说的话随便听一听，自己做决定。。
dis how our life should B.. hehe

So, sometime 2 much care of a person will end up loosing a very good buddy.. sad and terrific and also a perfetic ending of ur life.. remember.. do good.. bt do it smart..

My life til now still need alots of picture to fulfill it. picture of praise and compliment and sounds of criticize and embarrassment.. Sorry but, I wont left either one of my life chapter empty.. No matter its make up of Good o Bad.. It still puzzle up our life as our road still a LONG WAY TO GO~.. Yuhoo.. here i come.. arh hahaha.. kakax..

The very important thing that we should have is LOVE.. a simple 4 letter words that carry the mission to start this world.. Carry more of this.. leave behind another 4 letter words that spell as HATE.. get ride of that and u wil b more cheerful and felt more to the life..
love more.. ( credit to sophia)

J-turbo..

its a late night.. i am still here.. actually is nt so late.. just.. suite to expressing my thought..

so.. it's been so long since i last do my turbo-boosting study.. mayb.. its hard.. cause.. sometime.. it brings nothing and means nothing..

but.. i will turbo up 2 equip myself.. who is going to take care her if i nt thr.. who is going to gv her a arm to cry on if i am nt thr.. who is going to capture every moment of her smiles if i was nt thr..

as time flies.. life shorter.. more tears and effort needed to fulfill.. all d things comes around and turns around.. just get prepare for the unexpected and be cheerful..

confession

I would like to say thanks to you that all this while.. Your trust to me..

All this while, i never have a relationship that happen so many things that is beyond our control..

So many things happen, all this while.. I always shut my mouth up and don't defense myself..

I know, if I can't defense myself how can I protect U.. I will, get all my strength up and do what need to be done to fulfill my responsibility to you..

I fail my past few relation cause i really don't talk much, I don't tell other my problems and what am I thinking. But, U have the ability to know what am i thinking and my very own feeling..

My mood change as fast as tornado that strike the US, but u handle it as good as ABC..

All this while, I am a failure that can't fulfill anything, I will not be so anymore.. Take U to the place that U always wanted to..

Love you with all my heart and i have the faith that there no another U on any other planet and there is only U..

Love is the things that tied us up, trust is the things that hold us on..

I will love U with all my heart and I will gave my full trust to you..

I love U more than yesterday and a bit less than tomorrow.. Cause i want to keep on loving you..

I LOVE YOU

烂人一族 》。《

有些人，做错了会认错。。

有些事，做错了还能在改。。

有些人，做错事要让别人帮他们道歉。。

有些事，做错了还伤害到别人。。

有些人，不值得为我们等待，不值得为我们留念。。

有些事，发生了就发生了，不能再有任何的回改。。


我愿意改变，我愿意为我做错的事道歉。。但，为什么你连个机会都不给我。。你都在听人家的摆布，你都活在很好的家境。。我没你那么幸福，没那么幸运。。（我也不觉得你再被人摆布。。）我一点都不觉得。。我曾经帮你那么多，没说过半句怨言。。你呢，一声不吭，自己搞派对没说。。还说不是我搞的。。烂借口。。

好，不说他，说说他。。
做错了还要人家为他道歉。。我为他做过什么不如前一个他多。。但，每次都是为他收烂摊子。。没那么一点的好。。还一直怀疑别人。。也非常的不自量力。。烂透

So, after extreme week..

Yesh, today is monday.. And i am nt in school.. So is kinda busy week for me las 2 week.. so many things happen good o bad.. both added colour to my life.. make it more intresting and more delighting.. hahas.. os is GOOD..

So, many things changed.. The way treating people, the way if people getting back together.. all is under a script writer.. I duno who i am nt so soon wane met him.. hahas.. means ki chia soon la..

Las week, we get on to our sport day.. so this sport day changed a lots of things.. I mean the way we treated sport day.. Hahas.. To me , lastim sport day just spending money with fwens with some bowling o even Hock Lee.. Bt dis tim.. i am busy earning thm bec.. Selling all kinds of fruits and eating stuff.. so is another different experience..

so, went off to Pc fair.. woah.. so is good and so damn good.. hahas... i went thr 3 days and sold out 50+ laptop.. yuhu~ song chin chin.. lai lai.. c if u wane compete with me o nt.. hahas.. jkjkjk.. just my luck dis pc fair.. meet new fwens and learn new stuff.. thats how life should be.. hehe..

I saw that naif person.. He saw me no Hi and No nothing.. so so long u dis fwen.. i ain't gonna miss u..